Status: recovering

So I've had a night to sleep on the situation and I'm feeling better. I know it's for the best. We would both be miserable on the trip and it wouldn't be any fun. Good news is I get my money back from the plane ticket because Anna is taking my place and will buy my ticket from me. I'll only be out about $30 from the $100 fee of switching names on the ticket that Erika, Anna, and me will be splitting.

Erika came to me last night and was trying to get at saying she thought it would be best if we didn't go to FL together. She was having a hard time trying to place the words but I knew what she was getting at. And earlier that day I had made up my mind that I wasn't going to go and I'd tell her last night also. So it was a pretty mutual thing.

We agreed we'd try to start fresh after vacation. Work on things then. But in truth, I don't know if anything will improve. We've gone over our situation millions of times and nothing has changed. We're just not as close as we were before. I don't know how it'll change for the better, unless we fake it really.

I'm relieved I'm not going anymore but also sad. I didn't want it to end up this way.